AHH!! finally over wid my frst exam... phsycology! It is interesting to study but soo boring when giving an exam. i have training n development exam tom.

 

I hate tuesdays...... 2 cosecutive classes of Research method and report writing! we studies abtou Mataphysics research today... it was soooooooooooooooo boring.

I was soo absent minded today in my classes then finally my prof called me in his office and asked if anythign was wrong. i had to pretend tht everythings ok and i jsut didnt sleep well and thats why  i didnt participate in the class discussion.

Theres a seminar on "public speaking" on the 28th. im the organizer again.

 

Anyone has any idea why we girls are soooooo stupid????!!!!! why do we trust ppl so easily, why we frgve em so soon and frget what they did to us???? I am SOOO mad right now. just wana throw away things and scream so bad!!! u do no wrong to anyone, but in return someone hurts u again n again. wat to do then? i dunno... i hate my life n myself.

 

Right when everything is going smooth... something just pops up and your whole life turns out to be a nightmare or a disaster! you don't know who to trust, who to talk to , where to go, who to confide in. you lost trust in everyone. Everyone is a fake person to you. Life looks so meaningless, like you have done nothing and just wasted time figuring out things that caused confusion n tension in your life. Because at the end you still dont have the answers to all the bull shit that is still inside your mind! you try to find out the TRUTH...................

 THis is what I am upto these days. FInd out what exactly is happening around me. Am i really being betrayed and cheated on again? DId i make the right decision trusting ppl again? Am i stupid, gullible, too nice??? or can pl take me for granted all the time??? so many questions and not a single answer. sometimes i thnk LIFE SUCKS!! cant thnk of one happy moment of my life. even if i want to be happy and change things .... i cant. there are so many hurdles, so many barriers.

Thinking of my school n college days. life was soo good n easy. I wish i could turn back time and be young all my life. gorwing up would be so hard, never imagined that. I still have doubts about so many things. how to remove them? i dont know who to talk to who can really understand me and get my point , what im thinking, what i have to say. what  i want from ppl i care about the most. and the only answer i get is never expect anything from anyone.

I used to be a strong person.... but now im not sure if i call this being depressed or being cheated on twice broke me n i lost confidence inme. Im not that strong as i was b4. I take things on my heart very easily. i wsnt like this few months back. but all what has happend during that time...  i can never forgive that person nor i can forget what happend. no matter how hard i try. and i have tried!! but its not easy. whoever says its easy to frget n frgve ppl was a stupid n idiotic person.....

i just hope thngs work out well for me. just want the best for everyone.

yay!!! im back to uni again. it feels sooo good to have my social life back!!! one year , no uni, no studies.... no hanging out with frnds (not that much).. i felt locked up inside a cage. but i had a good time too.

Uni life is going great these days. maybe coz its the start of the semester. I had a tough schedule from 8 till 5. bt now its less hectic. 4 days a week. 3 days off. and classes only from 8:30 till 1. so its pretty cool.

the subjects get lil boring if i loose concentrate in the class (which always happen) but its going all good uptil now. I have arranged a seminar on wed the 7th of feb 07.. lets see how it go. theres a welcome part arranged by the 2nd n 3rd yrs fr the juniors. mite go to that too.

and the best thng.. i have started writing on my blog again! hope i continue writing and dont disappear again.

im off to bowling now...

heyy!! im back from islamabad! it was sooo much fun. one month of full freedom.. no work, just havng a great fun time!!!! made alot of new friends..met some wild, scarstic people too ( dont wana mention their names)..

im back home.. and got busy wid work again. plus ramadan so its work all the time.. round the clock....... 24/7!

i wana join some institution or uni.. ive got so bored at home.. and i still have to do my masterz. which is wat im thnking most about. lets see whats gonna happen. i hav to do my GMAT as well. and im so bad at MATH

 

My friend had a baby boy... she was the first one who got married from our friends circle. We all were very happy for her. She is now a "MOM".. and we the "khalas"...lol

Husna n I bought presents for the kid and went to her place.when reaching there we got to know that the baby was not feeling well and had to be taken to the doctor soon. She sat with us for like an hour and then she left. After that husna came over to my place. it was after 2 months that we met so we had ALOT to talk about.

We talked about our ambitions, motives, careers, our expectations from people and from life, attitude towards life n different people, why those who called our friends betrayed us, and why who were our friends we lost them?

I got to know my weaknesses and abilities or u can say characterisitcs of my personality....  that day. got to know how much i have to work on to enhance my personality.

MY WEAKNESSES:

* trust people very easily
* forgive them very quickly
* think everyone who is all so nice to me is my friend
* make decisions very quickly, not considering the consequences
* get bored of people, stuff, very quickly.
* straight forward (sometimes it hurt others)
* little things can make me cry... happening alot these days.
* Want everything i like, even if its of no use to me...
* Too generous and egoistic

 

characteristics of my personality:
 
* career oriented
* hard working
* sincere
* motivated
* determined
* straight forward ( in a positive way too)

some people say im still immature, and need to take life serisouly. be more practical. if i make a decision or want somethng.. it has to happen.. but its not always like this. you dont always get what you want.

 

 

so this is how my day passed by.. slept at 7, wokeup at 8:30.. wnet back to sleep again.. wokeup at 10 then. did laundry, dishes...... i was a full MASI today... lol

my moms stil in hyd... she will come back on sunday. my cusins staying wid me. went to dadis house today.... few of my other cusins were there too.. had a good time.

my mamo passed away... on sunday, :(

 

I had a very tiring day only because i got to sleep fr 5 hrs... and i did  alot of work today. dads home tonite...:) it was good talkng to him.

i now hav the documents fr the visa.. except 2 of em. hopefully will get em in a weeks time.