my lifes full of drama

Right when everything is going smooth... something just pops up and your whole life turns out to be a nightmare or a disaster! you don't know who to trust, who to talk to , where to go, who to confide in. you lost trust in everyone. Everyone is a fake person to you. Life looks so meaningless, like you have done nothing and just wasted time figuring out things that caused confusion n tension in your life. Because at the end you still dont have the answers to all the bull shit that is still inside your mind! you try to find out the TRUTH...................

 THis is what I am upto these days. FInd out what exactly is happening around me. Am i really being betrayed and cheated on again? DId i make the right decision trusting ppl again? Am i stupid, gullible, too nice??? or can pl take me for granted all the time??? so many questions and not a single answer. sometimes i thnk LIFE SUCKS!! cant thnk of one happy moment of my life. even if i want to be happy and change things .... i cant. there are so many hurdles, so many barriers.

Thinking of my school n college days. life was soo good n easy. I wish i could turn back time and be young all my life. gorwing up would be so hard, never imagined that. I still have doubts about so many things. how to remove them? i dont know who to talk to who can really understand me and get my point , what im thinking, what i have to say. what  i want from ppl i care about the most. and the only answer i get is never expect anything from anyone.

I used to be a strong person.... but now im not sure if i call this being depressed or being cheated on twice broke me n i lost confidence inme. Im not that strong as i was b4. I take things on my heart very easily. i wsnt like this few months back. but all what has happend during that time...  i can never forgive that person nor i can forget what happend. no matter how hard i try. and i have tried!! but its not easy. whoever says its easy to frget n frgve ppl was a stupid n idiotic person.....

i just hope thngs work out well for me. just want the best for everyone.